|Deviant Login||Shop||Join deviantART for FREE||Take the Tour|
CarefulYou don't read my words
They are too sad for you
"why are you never happy?" you ask
It isn't important for you to read
Write something happy...
Make me happy I will
Make love to me nightly I will write of seduction
Bring me flowers
I will write of loves abiding promises
Kiss me like there is only me
How I will write of the wonders of a loving man
Treat me like garbage
You get depressive writing you call it
You create what I write what do you expect
My emotions are not fake they are the real me as much as I let out
Maybe you should pay attention....
Creature of the nightTragic tears and tormented fears
Wake up and realize your life is fading
Someday you will find comfort in the stars
One day you will surrender your barriers
Face your demons and demolish your fears
Tortured creature don't run away
Take me awaySingle tear rolls down
Don't pity me in my despair
Wishing to have someone to relate
Feeling always alone no matter where I am
He has his dark secrets and I will let him have them
Why do I?
Not a clue in my crazed brain
My self esteem somewhere buried in a tomb
Never can I find it
Insecurities always following me
Is it my childhood or my past relationships
I just want someone to care about all the stupid shit I say
I just can't seem to keep old ghosts out of my heart
Thinking its my fault
Does time heal wounds seems not in my world
Tracks of these tears seem to be relentless
My body tired but feelings of love towards others strong
I will have to suffix for now on the love of them
He will have to wait
If my heart gets damaged so let it be ...its already damaged goods...
Lost in transitFalling apart at the seams
Close to shattering completely at any moment
Loving you is a journey of pain and chasing ghosts
Sucking the life out of me at times
I don't know what to do anymore
A cross roads seems to be coming
Worried I leaped when I should have ran
Easier to flee, but this challenge is becoming impossible
Maybe this is punishment for some lost evil done
Now I am becoming distant
First it was you're smothering and talking too much
Now why are you distant and not talking....
I feel trapped in this asylum
Am I the only sane one, or am I lost in time....
BreatheAnd then there was you
How far have you come to be here this night
Awake in your arms I find my collapsed world
Picking up this soul and rebuilding
Safe...was a faraway world
I am letting pieces of this wall come down
Crumbling to the floor I try to keep from boarding it back up
Healing from a lifetime of hurt
You are inside me showing me caring
I am trying not to wait for the other shoe to fall
Holding onto my sanity I try to stay positive
My breath caught in my chest as you caress my hair
Walk awayYou're creating a void between us
Learning how insensitive you are
Drives me far away from you
Sick of the daily whining when others are begging for work
You work to feed your family
This is not about you anymore
Yet you find ways to twist your words and create more stress
You want this your way
You will find yourself alone
I know there is nothing wrong with me
You have burdens I know I can't relate
Yet you tear apart everyone who loves you
Do you think this is the only way to feel special
Alone is all you will find
Escaping is all I want at times
You are blinded to all my sacrifices
Days are getting longer
Time is getting tired
Body is breaking down
Tears flowing daily torments of being with you
LiesWhat you fell in love with you never read anymore
How you used to critique and be full of passion
Now you are pulling from me
You never seem to read me anymore
Maybe I am becoming boring for you
I seem to have been just part of your fantasy world
A fun hour with a safe distance between us
You never have a fear of losing my affection
Merrily you widdle me along in your lust desired world
Do you know you are breaking me apart
Tearing me down little by little
I think you know all too well my love....
InsideTurn your eyes away....
Scorching lonesome pain invades the soul
Run from your dreams...faster now
Becoming shades of unforeseen dangers
Walls are slamming down around
Who are the beasts that lay and wait
Hold onto the barriers you built
Cleanse your eyes of the pain
Learn to hide from your chains of doubt
Captured angel pray for a savior
Alone in this dark with guilt
Holding onto to a sweet spell of release
Promises made and for told will be held tight
Waiting for the embrace of sacrifice
SpiritWhy do we feel broken at times
Weak with fever for what we don't guard
Can you be so torn apart that you can't reassemble
Falling backwards can you escape into oblivion
Is this torture or sweet release
Finding a need to be saved
Used and abused these demons surround whats left
Shattered blindness left behind now
Fading away reaching for a hand to grip tightly
Now broken pieces lay shattered on the floor
What to do now...
How do you piece back together a chaotic person
Deep within needs escaping
To fall away from life is to escape into raptures yet to find
Who will save a lost spirit....
Can I survive? Will you help me? Help me..
Why is it so hard. why? Help..am I alone? I'm tired, don't want to fight. Every minute of everyday...Help me..........help.
When does it get easy? why me? Do I deserve this? Am I bad? Is that why?
I hear voices telling me to give up..I want to....I want to stop..help me...I want it to stop..
I hate them..please...make it stop..help me...there hands come out of the walls and grab me...get them off of me..please..help...
Why won't anybody help......?
Dead and GoneA cold that chills to the very bone
Sitting in my hearse alone
My coffin cramped and lined with satin
I can't believe that this could happen
One day here, the next I'm not
Soon my body will be laid to rot
The preacher will speak the sermons of old
And the people will cry, or so I'm told
Then they'll lower me down into the ground
While not even children make a sound
And a handful of dirt each will give
Remembering the life that I lived
Then all I'll be is a thought
A memory, a shot in the dark
And if they think back on me
They'll remember how I lived so free
And they'll remember how I loved so strong
And how I loved forever long
And even though I'm no longer around
And my corpse lies rotting in the ground
Know the sun again will rise
And you can try to feel alive
So please don't cry a single tear
My love, please know I'm always near
Day for a DepressiveDragging along is a simple thing
here there is no pleasure;
Walking numb without a course
RosettaThe ways that my lips and eyes
curve and shine
are a language that whisper my secrets.
I have been decoded
(nothing is sacred).
Your gaze softens mine,
every time every time every time...
I do not appreciate
betraying myself under your
laughing, hazel eyes
and the heat of your torch.
You know me so well and I want you
to make me furious,
to give me the excuse
to let you be the créme de menthe
that cools the fire on my tongue.
SuffocateYour finger's bent and broken
Now it's pointing at yourself
But you look behind you
As if it's pointing to someone else
The mirror you gaze in
Is smeared with tears
It distorts your beauty
And shows you what's really inside
But you close your eyes
You smile so brightly
But your breath has the scent
Of the heart you chewed up and spit out
But you ignore the stench
Your words are loud
But the hate behind them is louder
So you plug your ears so you can't hear it
Your soul is massive
But you burry love with the dirt inside it
And walk away as love slowly suffocates
You should acknowledge that your finger points back at you
You should open your eyes when you look in the mirror
You should stop ignoring the stench of your breath behind that smile
You should unplug your ears and listen to your words
Then you should burry yourself
With the dirt that's in your soul
And I will walk away as you suffocate
Just as you did with the love that I gave to you
The Wind Cries Your NameThe wind cries your name
As I feel your touch while I peacefully fall into sleep
I see your face when I dream, and it sets my soul at ease
The wind cries your name
I see your reflection in the mirror as you embrace me from behind
The warmth of your touch makes my breath deep and my exhale so calming
The wind cries your name
As I get ready to start my day with you
I love when you smile as you watch me undress
The wind cries your name
I ask you questions about life
I ask you questions about us
And As I wait for your answers so patiently
I hear the wind cry your name again
And then it whispers to me, with a respectful tone
"She's not really there"
LegionThink for the ink of words,
Imagine them breathless in time,
Compare to the everlasting beauty,
Reach to all immortal lusting.
Whisper to the night,
Give caution to the wind,
Forget all that cause them wrong,
Embrace that which smothers.
Linger on their presence,
Destroy traces of mortality,
Accept the inner demons,
Remember each for their own.
Hold within life,
Distinguish the demons' love,
Glance into the mirror,
Overlook the flaws of sin.
Acknowledge the truth,
Release from tortured friendship,
Take that which forgets memory,
Listen to our whispers;
For we are many.
Taking Back The DayCandy tastes bitter
on this arbitrary day.
Kisses look like
little wrapped bombs
in aluminum foil;
no X's & O's for me -
I'm not hungry anyway.
But I cannot stand
the sight of flowers.
Carnations are too sweet.
Roses are too dusky,
and far too inviting,
and without shame.
Stamp 'em in a card
and give 'em to your lover,
then burn all the rest
for the sake of the rest of us.
Let's have a bonfire of the vanity
of this 'gifts for sex'
Saint Hallmark's Day.
Now gather round ye lonely,
and warm your hearts;
we are taking back the day.
Don't worry, lovebirds,
we'll throw it back
after our blood mingles
with strawberry champagne,
but as the number 14,
because a day belongs to no one.
afterLifePassion not soon lost
Hailing sweet crimson honey from flesh,
Severing the root of life
Once cut, twice burdened, death will only
Whet the appetite for Torment's final course.
Hellish dreams, not for waking
Hours, yet living are the grotesque visions
From the Word; the fiery Chasm no more
A distant sense of dread, surreal
Like a written word brought to painted canvas.
A painting titled Inferno
Stricken voices echoed from my cell mates
In this eternal prison on the Burning Plains
And soonest did I know why.
Grim were the fates of those
That Death had brought to cross and dwell in that nightmare realm.
Lo, my eyes opened, the Dark flooded
With Light not from flames tormenting;
For Death had yet not come.
But the crimson manacle remained
A monolith for what death would bring,
Lest I forget to live.
Day to dayWE don't talk
you don't look me in the eye anymore
Words linger on my tongue "are we done?"
You differ from any talk of us apart
What does that mean?
Why can't you tell me how you really feel?
Why is this so difficult?
Close your eyes and tell me
Write it down
I need an answer and you are keeping me waiting for too long....
Keep in Touch!
Endorell-Taelos is very well known within the community for her selfless giving and gracious community spirit. Since joining DeviantART over seven years ago, Alicia has continued to make a positive impact on many deviants. Her helpful and thoughtful approach was one of her finest attributes when serving as a Community Volunteer, and this has continued throughout the many contests which Alicia provides on a regular basis. As we approach our Birthday celebrations, we can't... Read More